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I have always been fascinated by space all my life. I took courses in astronomy and at one point in time I was even enrolled in an astrophysics program in university. As the release of this game called Starfield approached, my anticipation grew.

For the first time in my life, I wrote a blog post and made a youtube video about a video game.

Before you read this article, I want to be upfront and tell you that I have played Starfield for about 10 hours and I do not intent to play any more of it. I do not like Starfield. It has been a disappointing 10 hour ordeal with short moments of bliss.

Now if you care to find out why I feel this way, please read on.

The good parts

Lets get the good parts out of the way first. I will never get to go to the moon; I can say that one can dream and be hopeful that space travel will some day become so popular and affordable that one day it might even be possible for regular folks like us to travel to the moon. But it is not going happen. Now keep my mindset in… mind when I tell you that I was on the moon in Starfield jumping around and it was glorious. This is probably the closest thing to jumping on the moon that I will ever get to experience and it was glorious! – Did I say glorious twice?

Because it was glorious, in fact jumping around on any low gravity planet in Starfield is amazing. And I think different planets have different gravity in Starfield and your moment is affected by that fact which I think was a neat little detail.

Speaking of details, visually, there is an astonishing amount of detail from coffee mugs to note pads and tiles on floors. But not just visually, the immersive in-game city audio, filled with bustling sounds of the city of Neon creates the sensation that this virtual city is truly alive.

Although, if we are comparing cyberpunk style city visuals, The Ascent really takes the cake and does it much better.

The story about how different factions in Starfield came about was interesting – it was literally a story being narrated that you had to listen through to be qualified for a job in one of the factions. But once I got going, I did not really care about which faction, I was going to work for. It was just another side mission that led to shooting someone or retrieving something. I have not gone too far into the game, so there may be things that are a lot more interesting, or so I keep hearing people say.

The bad

That’s about where the good part ends for me.

Visual

Although game assets are very detailed, the color pallet feels a bit unappealing to me in some areas. There is this general hazy look which after a few hours into the game, I realized that it can be reduced or completely turned off in the display setting. You can also turn off motion blur, but turning one or both of them started to give me headaches. I did not bother figuring out which setting was causing my headaches.

Gameplay

The gunfight, and movement are better than Fallout 4, but still nothing ground breaking. Mass Effect Andromeda, with all its flaws had superb gameplay mechanics from the way weapons fired to movement while in combat. But I understand that no on really plays Bethesda games from its gameplay. It’s good enough, and it’s satisfying.

Uninteresting story

The game begins with your character touching some artifact that gives you a vision and then you are on a quest to understand its mysteries. Sounds very much like the beginning of Mass Effect. The difference is, I was intrigued and wanted to find more about this artifact while playing Mass Effect. There was a sense of importance, a sense of urgency. I felt that my character was part of something bigger.

In Starfield, I felt none of that. The Constellation group did not do much to convince me as a player that I should even care about this artifact and what these visions could mean.

Side Missions

Just as a disclaimer, I have only played this game for 10 hours and it could very well be that the side quests that I played are in fact boring.

It is well known in the gaming community that the side quests are one of the main attractions in every Bethesda game. I have heard from many people that there are some very interesting side quests in Starfield. So taking that into account, it is quite possible that I might have just by sheer luck come across the less interesting ones, or frankly, down right boring AF.

Here are some things that I did in side quests

• I mined some resources
• applied of jobs
• took tests to qualify for jobs
• took a museum tour talking about the history how how different factions came into being
• convinced an idiot to take a loan because his business is sinking because he opened a mining operation on a water planet
• handed flyers to local businesses
• brought coffee to my corporate bosses
• picked up sensors around trees that look like little eggs around the city to help a researcher

Do any of these sound interesting to you? If I wanted a job as an intern, I would go get a job as an intern in real life. Why would I spend my money and time to do all of that in a video game? Some people may enjoy doing these things IN A VIDEO GAME – I do not!

There are other combat missions that I did too, but they did little to make up for the drudgery of the aforementioned activities.

Endless sequence of loading screens

Opening doors, going to your ship, landing your ship on a planet, it is all just loading screen after loading screen.

Pointless Space travel

There is no real space travel. You simply select a planet and fast travel to the orbit of that planet and then you fast travel to one of the locations on the planet. And of the few planets that I visited, there were mostly only 2 or 3 locations that you can actually travel to. Apparently, that is the case of every other planet that other people have been to.

Do not Walk, just Teleport

I tried landing somewhere else on a planet, close to my target location but not exactly there and it took a long time of walking and so I gave up and just fast travelled to the target location. From what people are saying, walking from one location to another on a planet is apparently not even possible.

Defeated

It was painful to write this blog post because I really did not want to think about Starfield anymore. There were more things that I had planned to talk about, but I just could not get myself to write it all.

A lot of people say the game starts to get better much later, but I just cannot get myself to spend any more time on this.

So at 3AM and 10 hours into the game, I decided that I could at that very moment do anything at all and still have a better time than playing Starfield.

In the vast cosmos of the gaming industry, few upcoming titles have generated as much excitement and anticipation as “Starfield.” Developed by the legendary Bethesda Game Studios and published by Xbox Game Studios, Starfield holds the promise of a groundbreaking space-faring RPG that could redefine the gaming landscape. This blog post delves into the factors behind the massive hype surrounding Starfield and explains why its success is crucial for both Xbox and Microsoft in the gaming world.

The Hype Machine:

Bethesda: Legacy of Excellence

Bethesda Game Studios, known for the acclaimed Elder Scrolls and Fallout series, has built a reputation for delivering immersive, open-world experiences. Fans have high expectations for Starfield, anticipating a similar level of craftsmanship in a new and unexplored sci-fi setting.

The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim was released in 2011 and is a game which people are playing even now. I for one dipped my toes for the first time in the world of Skyrim a week ago. I just killed the first dragon, met the greybeards, and did a few side quests, which in all honesty, might even be scratching the surface of the world of Skyrim and even so I have become enchanted by its lore, its atmospheric music and expansive landscape.

A New World

Starfield is the first new IP by Bethesda Game Studios in over twenty-five years and has been described by director Todd Howard as “Skyrim in space”. It was announced in 2018, set to release in 2022, then delayed possibly due to the global pandemic. Scarce details about the game only fuelled the anticipation, leaving players eager for more information about its gameplay mechanics, story, and world. It would be a gross understatement to say that there has been great anticipation for this game.

With recent gameplay mechanics and further details about the game at Gamescom 2023, Starfield is a call to Elder Scrolls fans who have been eagerly waiting to lose themselves in a new and immersive world.

The Space Exploration Renaissance

In recent years, a remarkable surge of interest in space exploration has taken center stage, with companies like SpaceX, Virgin Galactic, and Blue Origin. NASA’s renewed commitment to lunar exploration and India’s recent successful lunar landing have all added to the momentum.

With sci-fi entertainment, specifically space sagas experiencing a renaissance across various media, including TV shows like The Expanse, Mars, Lost in Space, Away, etc.., movies like The Martian, Ad Astra, Interstellar, The Wandering Earth, and books like The Martian, Project Hail Mary, and he Space Between Worlds, the timing could not be better for a highly anticipated sci-fi game.

All but a few will get to explore space in real life.

Starfield taps into this broader cultural trend, drawing in both avid gamers, general sci-fi enthusiasts and space lovers.

Significance for Xbox and Microsoft

The Exclusivity Wars

In the realm of gaming exclusivity, both PlayStation and Nintendo have showcased an impressive array of titles that define the appeal of their respective platforms. PlayStation’s roster includes iconic hits like Demon’s Souls, Ratchet & Clank: Rift Apart, Horizon Forbidden West, God of War Ragnarok, and Last of Us Part 1 and 2. Meanwhile, Nintendo’s acclaimed exclusives such as The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild and Tears of the Kingdom, Super Mario Odyssey, and the serene Animal Crossing: New Horizons continue to captivate players worldwide.

Xbox Series X/S has…Halo Infinite? And maybe Forza Horizon and Motorsport and Gears of War?

Starfield’s exclusivity to Xbox consoles and PC is a strategic move by Microsoft to enhance the appeal of their gaming ecosystem. By offering exclusive titles, Microsoft aims to attract new players to the Xbox platform while retaining existing fans.

Game Pass: The Golden Goose

Xbox Game Pass, Microsoft’s subscription-based gaming service, commonly known as the “Netflix for games”, has become a central component of their gaming strategy. The addition of Starfield to Game Pass upon release (or what is referred to say “Day One Release”) could drive more subscriptions and demonstrate the service’s value proposition to gamers.

The gaming industry is marked by fierce competition, with Microsoft vying against industry giants like Sony and Nintendo. A successful Starfield launch could tip the scales in Microsoft’s favor, bolstering their position in the ongoing console wars.

Microsoft acquired ZeniMax Media, the parent company of Bethesda Softworks and its subsidiaries, for $7.5 billion. Bethesda games are renowned for being immersive to the point where players pour in hundreds of hours into their games. The longer players spend playing their games the more justified it will be for customers to continue to be subscribed to Game Pass.

This is just one more reason why Starfield is so important; for Microsoft, Starfield must not fail.

Cultural Impact

Iconic games have the power to shape pop culture and influence broader discussions. Xbox has long been trailing behind giants like Sony and Nindendo. A successful Starfield could establish Xbox as a hub for innovative storytelling and memorable gaming experiences, elevating the brand’s cultural significance, or at least stay in the game (pun intended) to fight on.

Final words

The enthusiasm surrounding Starfield is a testament to the gaming community’s passion for immersive experiences and new horizons. As the gaming world eagerly awaits the eventual release of Starfield, the game’s success holds immense importance for both Xbox and Microsoft’s ambitions. By capitalizing on the hype and delivering a game that meets or exceeds expectations, Xbox and Microsoft could be on the cusp of a victory that reverberates throughout the industry for years to come.

Thank you for tuning in. This is my take on Starfield, what’s yours?

PS: This is just the beginning of my coverage of the gaming industry. Stay tuned as we still have to dwell into the massive power move; Microsoft’s Acquisition of Activation.

Less than two years ago, I boldly made a prediction ahead of WWDC 21 that Final Cut Pro would make its way to iPadOS, exclusively compatible with the cutting-edge M1 iPad Pro.

My reasoning? With macOS Mac now utilizing Apple Silicon’s M series, it seemed only natural for Apple to bring its renowned software to the iPad platform.

Yet, my prediction did not materialize in 2021. Nor did it come to fruition in 2022. However, just two days ago, on May 9, 2023, Apple sent shockwaves through the creative community with a long-awaited announcement: Final Cut Pro and Logic Pro are indeed coming to iPadOS.

But here’s the twist—it didn’t unfold quite as I had expected. In fact, I doubt anyone saw this coming. Apple has taken a new approach, introducing a subscription model for Final Cut Pro and Logic Pro on iPad.

This move signifies a significant departure from Apple’s traditional model of one-time payments for their flagship software. It’s a shift that has sparked heated discussions among creative professionals, enthusiasts, and tech aficionados alike. What does this mean for the future of Apple’s software pricing strategy? Will it spill over to the Mac versions of Final Cut Pro and Logic Pro?

Final Cut Pro Vs The Competition : Cost

To add further intrigue to the mix, let’s compare the pricing of Adobe’s counterparts. Adobe Premiere Pro, an industry-leading video editing software, and Adobe Audition, a professional audio production tool, are part of Adobe’s Creative Cloud subscription. Starting at $20.99 per month with an annual commitment, this subscription provides access to a suite of Adobe applications, including Photoshop, Illustrator, and After Effects.

Now, let’s do a little math.

• Final Cut Pro (Mac): One-time purchase for $299.99
• Compressor (Mac): One-time purchase for $49.99
• Motion (Mac): One-time purchase for $49.99

Total cost for three years: $399.97

• Adobe Creative Cloud (Premiere Pro and Audition): Subscription starting at $20.99/month (annual commitment)

Total cost for three years: $755.64

As you can see, over a three-year period, the one-time purchase option for Final Cut Pro, Compressor, and Motion on Mac offers a more cost-effective solution compared to Adobe’s subscription-based model for Premiere Pro and Audition in Adobe Creative Cloud.

As Final Cut Pro and Logic Pro make their entrance into the world of iPadOS, we can’t help but wonder if this move marks the beginning of a larger shift in Apple’s software pricing strategy. Will the subscription model become the new norm for all Apple software, including their esteemed Mac versions?

Only time will tell. Until then, creatives across the globe eagerly await the opportunity to harness the power of Final Cut Pro and Logic Pro on iPad, while keeping a watchful eye on how this subscription paradigm shift shapes the landscape of Apple’s software ecosystem.

Is the cost of owning a mac going to rise?

As creatives rejoice over the expanded possibilities of Final Cut Pro and Logic Pro on iPadOS, it’s important to consider the implications this subscription model may have on our pockets.

For years, the allure of investing in a premium-priced MacBook stemmed from the inclusion of free software like Garage band, and iMovie and onetime payment model for their older siblings Logic Pro and Final Cut Pro both of which are considered powerhouse software applications.

But if Apple continues down the subscription path for their Mac counterparts, it begs the question: Will the overall cost of owning Apple’s hardware and software ecosystem increase?

This could just be the beginning. If Apple sees a positive response this pivot to software as a Service model for these two applications, what could this mean for free apps bundled with Apple hardware like iMovie, Garageband, Pages, Keynote and Numbers? Could Apple decide to do the same for these apps as well? Or perhaps Apple could decide to include in a combined Apps subscription for a ‘small fee’ or bundled it with lower tier Apple One subscription.

What does this mean for me personally?

I do not own a mac, the last time I used a garage band or iMovie was some 8 or so years ago. So what does this even matter to me you may wonder.

I have recently been wanting to dip my toes in content creation and I currently use Linux, and as much as I love Linux, content creations on Linux specifically video editing and music production,…well…it sucks. Kdelive live is notorious for crashing randomly.

I have been also changing my priorities and I just want something simple and just works even if it means sacrificing the flexibility to customize my desktop experience.

Knowing that mac does come with great software like iMovie and Garageband and also migrating to something like final cut pro and Logic pro is a simple exported, added to that the one time payment, I was convinced that despite its other short comings, Macos might actually be a good option.

However, this subscription shift by Apples leaves me in a state hesitation.

Although I am generalizing here, every coffee’s ‘medium’ or ‘dark’ roast will be different. This particular recipe, is my favorite one for the Tim Hortons’ Original Blend coffee. Check out my previous blog post about Tim Hortons (the good, the bad and the ugly) . I recently bought a pack just to try and I was pleasantly surprised by the results.

Since this is pre-ground coffee, you cannot control the coarseness, but you can control the temperature and brew time and technique. First I tried brewing this coffee with a Hario V60 with boiling water. Then I dialed it down to 85C, and the results were much better. The end result was a cup that had some sweetness, bitterness that was not overly harsh, and also some acidity which I was quite surprised by.

Then I tried brewing with the Aeropress and the result was even better. In my experience Aeropress performs a bit better and consistently with darker roasts than the Hario V60.

Overview:

• 60g:1L ratio (12g of coffee to 200g of water)
• 85C water
• inverted method
• no bloom required

The winning recipe

I call this recipe “The Morning Rush” because I think it is simple enough to use even when you are in a rush in the morning, and yet can produce a consistently good cup.

• place the Aeropress in inverted position
• add 12g of coffee
• Add all 200g of water
• stir it 10 times
• place the cap with filter (no need to rinse if in a rush)
• wait for 2 minutes
• press excess air out
• invert and press coffee into your favorite cup
• Enjoy!

Ten years ago I sent a video message to my future self. For the past 10 years, I have lived precariously close to jumping off with my whims, but I held onto the ladder. But of what use is climbing on a ladder if it is leaning against the wrong wall?

So I have decided to lean into rather than away from my whims. It may not be for the next ten years, it may be for the next two, or for a life time, but what I do is that I do not want to keep living this way. If I go back further in time then this is not the life my seventeen year old self would have chosen. Listening to a seventeen year old for life advice may not be the most adult like thing to do, but then who said that the adult thing to do is the right thing to do anyway. That seventeen year old self was the no nonsense, fearless, careless and naive young man who had more to look forward to in life than his future self. I have shut him up and imposed rules and restrictions on him long enough.

I quit! I am done! Imagine having a harpoon stuck between your ribs. That is what it has felt like. It is time for me to let go of a life which I never wanted.

I am closing my business, Okinara Consulting Services for good. It started as a ‘for the time being project while I figure things out” after a failed start up. This side quest has lasted over 10 years. A side quest that in all honestly has had at best moments of “I guess this is okay”. If you spent too much time on side quests, your main story line remains incomplete.

It is safer to remain in your comfort zone goes the feeling for most people. Your job, your business, your career becomes a means to an end. Have-tos and need-tos govern most of our lives. Ironically staying in my ‘comfort zone’ has been the most unbaringly uncomfortable thing that I have ever done and I have been doing it a large portion of my life; time that I will never and can never get back.

As for what my ten-years-younger-self said to me, most of the things that he thought would have happened, never did. But I also realize how different my priorities were. I no longer want some of those things. There are still things that I do want. To quote myself.

No matter what you have achieved up until now in 2022, know that you must keep going on. You get only one chance to live so live it fully. Over the years you may have lost touch with yourself. I hope you have not. But if you have, you can reconnect to yourself, with your true nature again. Remember you are here to help others. You have a purpose to be fulfilled. I hope you are fulfilling your purpose. There is so much you have to do. Keep on going. Just keep swimming. Keep on going. I hope you have lived your life with passion and honestly. Satyameva jayate.

This abstract concept of purpose is something I no longer believe in. We are a product of cause and effect and other random events. There is no purpose in life. There is no purpose of life. It is a lie that we tell ourselves because that is what gives us meaning. Purpose of life would mean an intention. No one intended life to begin. It happened because a random series of events occurred in that specific order.

I do believe that there are true natures to people. What you decide to do with that nature becomes your purpose. Purpose is decision, not destiny.

So here I go, leaning into my every whims.

Why is Kindle Paperwhite the perfect Kindle?

Price! It was on sale on Black Friday and is again on sale now for $115CAD. The new version has a modern flash design. It does not have physical page turn buttons but the touchscreen is perfectly capable of easy navigation. It also has a dark mode for reading at night. I personally would not have bought one if it did not have a dark mode. It also has a warm light and brightness adjuster so it is pleasant to read in various light settings.

The other feature that I really like is Kindle’s integration with gooreads, and that is to be expected because both companies are own by Amazon. I also like the X-ray feature which is a boom for someone like me who reads multiple books at the same time. Integration with a dictionary and wikipedia is also great.

The only thing I wish Kindle had was flexibility in the format of the ebooks. I do not like getting tied to one company for anything. The greater a company’s openness, the higher is my personal rating. This is the very reason, I use open source software like firefox, linux, nextcloud, libre office etc..

Disadvantage of Kindle

The other disadvantage of owning a Kindle ereader is the lack of integration with public libraries. Currently, Kindle does not support local libraries in Canada( or is is that local libraries do not support Kindle ereaders. Either way, it is a no-go).

Kobo – The more open Kindle Alternative

Kobo on the other hand does work well with local libraries. Most public libraries in Canada support Overdrive which has tight integration with Kobo. You can browse and borrow books from public libraries that support Overdrive directly from Kobo ereaders. Again, this is to be expected because Kobo and Overdrive are owned by Rakuten.

Another advantage of Kobo is that it is more open and can read ebooks from multiple sources because it uses the ePub format. This way you are not locked into one store like what Amazon does with Kindle.

My Choice?

Kindle

My choice a is a bit complicated. I subscribe to Amazon Prime, which no doubt is a great service. It includes free shipping for most orders on Amazon, Prime Video and Prime Reading, which provides you with free books that you can read without waiting for holds or having an time limits. Also, I really do love the Goodreads integration and X-ray integration.

Amazon locks you into the Kindle bookstore. Kindle also does not support overdrive in Canada, which normally would be a big knock against Kindle, however,

Kobo

I live in Brampton, and 2 years ago Brampton Library decided to remove Overdrive support. So buying a Kobo, just does not make sense for me. I am very disappointed that Brampton Library no longer supports Overdrive.

But there are other good things about Kobo, like the fact that it is more open than Kindle, and Brampton Library still does support Kobo with CloudLibrary, but there are extra steps involved, which for someone like me, reading itself is an extra step IN LIFE, is a big no no.

Kobo also supports Mozilla’s Pocket, and even though I have an account and have the plugin enabled, I never really use it, but just like reading books included with my prime membership was not read by me until I got a Kindle, who knows, I might start using Pocket more if I got a Kobo.

One more thing that pulls me towards Kobo is its Canadian roots. And because it supports overdrive, I am even thinking of paying $120/year to get non-resident access to Toronto Library – oh how I miss living in Toronto.

Final Decision?

If I am honest, I am leaning more towards Kindle. What it has going for itself is:

• Goodreads Integration
• Amazon Audibles integration
• X-ray feature
• Prime Reading
• You can sort of, kind of, may be if you are willing to go through some hoops and charter into territory of using a software like Calibre to convert books borrowed from public libraries to read them on a Kindle ereader.

If Amazon decided to open up its doors to Overdrive, then Kindle will be a nobrainer, but until then, I still need to consider Kobo as an alternative.

I am thinking of purchasing the Kobo Libra 2 to see if I like it better than the Kindle Paperwhite.

It may be unfathomable to most that anyone who loves to write, not share the same sentiment towards reading. I am such a person, or rather, and might I delightedly correct myself – I was such a person. In retrospect perhaps this was a sign on my unwillingness to listening before I spoke. Being a natural introvert, I never thought that that was a problem I had. But speaking less does not equate to listening more.

Listening before you wanting to be heard is something that I have learned from “The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People”. Normally, I would not be reading this or any other such book. Any book that I have read in my life was because I had to for school or for a work project. However, most of my work project reading fell under technical documentation or wikis.

The only reason, I started reading the book was because, it was free for Amazon Prime members, and since I had in the past from multiple sources, heard good things about the book. I had started reading it in May of this year. A week ago, I was not even half way through the book. Reading to me was an idea imagined to be worth pursuing, but lacking the same allure of…um.. anything but reading.

This Black Firday, I made an impulse purchase of a Kindle Paperwhite. It was heavily discounted, and I thought, “oh what the heck.” and the next think I knew was it was in my cart. A week later, I had it in my hands. I still waited 2 days before I opened it. My skepticism of my sudden urge to start reading was warranted. This was not my first kindle. I think I still have my first kindle in the deep recesses of my box, or boxes of neglected momentary passions.

This time, however, it feels different. For one, the first generation kindle has nothing on the newer kindles or any book modern ereaders for that matter. For the most part, ereaders have remained the same, but their speed and touch capabilities have increase hundredfold. Of course, they are not as snappy as smartphones or tablets, but no one needs those speeds when reading anyway. At least not until some company decides to ‘do it anyway’.

So after I finally decided to open the new kindle, the first book I decided to read was The Seven Habits…. I completed it in around a week. And not only that, I am currently reading and listening to 7 books. Opening the kindle package, I was pleasantly surprised by the fact that Amazon had decided to go for a mimal packaging approach which according to Amazon: “95% of this device’s packaging is made of wood fiber-based materials from responsibly managed forests or recycled sources.” Go figure.

One obvious and important reason why I like ebooks is that ebooks are environment friendly. You are not cutting down treas to produce ebooks. Also, ebooks will not get torn, or damaged. Technically ebooks will never die. Of course, there is the possibility that vendors like Amazon or Kobo will decide to not support it in the future or do something dubious like stop supporting older version of ereaders, and this does happen in pretty much every industry now, but that is a topic of discussion for another time.

But the biggest advantage is that you can carry literally hundreds and even thousands of books on one single ereader. Not only that, if you lose your ereader, you can always purchase a new one and download all your books within minutes. Not to mention, the social aspect of reading ebooks. You can share quote and highlights from ereader.

Reading has been somewhat of a stress buster. All my worries and other nagging thoughts just fade away as I melt into a good book. One good book that I am reading is “Sold on A Monday”. Normally, I would read books like these, just the description would turn me away. Also, I do not think I have ever willingly read a fiction book, apart from The Alchemist because it is so revered the world over. But because Sold on A Monday was available for free with Kindle Unlimited and I had a free trial, I decided to download it. I am so captivated by what is happening in the book. I am about half way through the book.

The other book that I am reading is 1984 – a classic, but bares so much resemblance to over time, expect the signs are not so obvious. Big brother lurks in the shadows of the digital world.

I was clueless to the fantastic ability of authors to create characters and worlds in the minds of their readers. Perhaps, I merely forgot what it was like to read stories. I did enjoy books like Treasure Island, The Swiss Family Robinson and Making Good, as a child in Primary school. Those books were the last books I remember reading because I had no choice, but to date they bring back fondest of memories. I remember those vivid worlds more than the movies and TV shows that I have watched.

But at last I have begun my journey in reading. I hope I can continue this same level of excitement for many more books to come. I want to start with classics, the Mark Twain, Charles Dickens, Isaac Asimov, Jules Verne books.

It is never too late to start.

I did not celebrate Canada Day this year. I did not wish anyone Happy Canada Day, I did not have a BBQ or go out for picnic. I have mixed emotions about this year’s July 1st. I just got a second shot of vaccine and although I do not feeling 100%, I can take comfort in knowing that I am doing my part to protect myself, my family and my community. The restrictions due to the pandemic are starting to easy, so I can be happy about that too. Canada has a great health care system, that is free and accessible to all; I can be thankful for that. Easy access to fast internet meant that everyone who had to work from home was able to for the past one year or so. I can be thankful for all of that and more.

I am trying to look for things to celebrate, and be thankful for to be a citizen of this country. But just like many Canadians who are mourning the tragedy that is in the history of this country, I too feel pain, embarrassment and shame. Unmarked graves of children who were part of the Indigenous residential school systems have been discovered in the hundreds, and it has brought to light the dark history of this nation.

From the 19th century until the 1990s, more than 150,000 Indigenous children were forced to attend state-funded schools in a campaign to forcibly assimilate them into Canadian society. Abuse was rife at the schools where thousands of children died of disease, neglect and other causes.

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2021/jun/30/canada-first-nations-unmarked-graves-indigenous-residential-school-british-columbia

It is not only the death of individuals, but of future generations. The pain was not only caused to those individuals who lost their lives, but also to the families who had to endure their lose,and now after generations, the entire country morns.

No amount of social progress can ever replace or hide nor should it ever the dark history of this country. I was aware of the unjust treatment of the native population in the past, and the present neglect that the indigenous people of this country face, but this just shatters the very foundation of what makes a country great. Today when I look at my country’s flag, I find it difficult to see the beauty in its simplicity of white and red, and the iconic maple leaf. I cannot help but see the blood of innocent children in the red of this flag.

I cannot help but feel that the road that I drive one, the pavement that I walk on, the floor of my home that I stand on was built on the foundation of bones of the innocent.